So, life has improved. I never thought I would utter those words but it's true. I have come to the realization that Jesus Christ hasn't come to earth to solve all my problems. He has come to bring me into a state of completion. Of course I haven't arrived but I am far more closer than when I began this journey. I feel like I have been emptied of a lot of myself and the spirit of God has taken up much more residence in my life. I have learned there is no real blueprint for this journey. God has taught me that my life is going to be exactly what I choose it to be. I am not saying God is not sovereign; but I am saying that I have lot more responsibility than I thought I did for how my life turns out. The blessing and the burden of choice.